January Wrap-Up

2018 will be a year full of changes. Most will be only for me, but some of them may influcence Books to get lost in. Two changes are only for my blog.

One of them is going back to monthly reviews, the other change has its own blog post.


I’ve joined an affiliate program. Read more about it here.

Books I’ve bought









Buy The Magpie Lord              Blood Stained Tea
Amazon.de*                               Amazon.de*
Amazon.com*                            Amazon.com*

ARCs I received

Buy The Interludes

Books I’ve read









Buy The Magpie Lord           Buy Gemina
Amazon.de*                            Amazon.de*

Amazon.com*                         Amazon.com*


Buy The Devil you know       Buy Empty Net
Amazon.de*                           Amazon.de*
Amazon.com*                        Amazon.com*

Books I’ve put on my tbr

A tiny Piece of something Greater

Books I’ve reviewed









Review: All the Ways to Here     Review: Self Love Workbook Planner      Review: Skin

Books I’ve dnf-ed







Buy Cop Town                  Buy Sleeping Beauties
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Amazon.com*                   Amazon.com*



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Making Money as a Book Blogger

Hopefully I didn’t scare you with that headline? I will NEVER accept payment for writing a positive review! So no worries there.

I’m simply using affiliate links as of now. Or rather as of yesterday. I’m slowly updating my blog, starting with the reviews with the highest rating and slowly working my way downwards.

What does that mean for you?
Nothing changes really. My reviews will stays the same, always offering my honest opinion of the reviewed book. If you decide you’d like to buy the book in question and you want to buy it at Amazon, you can use the affiliate link I’ve put in my review (it’s always marked with an *). If you use the link, you don’t pay more (nor less sadly) than the price you would’ve paid without it. I simply receive a small amount of money as a way of thanks from Amazon for generating a buy.

I don’t intent my blog as my only way of income (so much nope), but I wouldn’t say no to a little pocket-money for more books or bookish stuff.  That’s why I’ve decided to join. But you absolutely do not have to use my affiliate links if you don’t want to!

Are there any other sellers you buy at? I’m currently affiliating with amazon.de and amazon.com.

If you are a blogger, do you use affiliate programs?


Review: Skin by Christian Baines

 Series: Standalone

Genre: Horror

Diversity: LGBTQIA+ (m/m), maybe more

Rating: dnf

Cover: There should have been a rape scene on it.

Links: goodreads, Amazon.de*, Amazon.com*

Trigger warnings: rape, murder, maybe more

Description: Kyle, a young newcomer to New Orleans, is haunted by the memory of his first lover, brutally murdered just outside the French Quarter.

Marc, a young Quarter hustler, is haunted by an eccentric spirit that shares his dreams, and by the handsome but vicious lover who shares his bed.

When the barrier between these men comes down, it will prove thinner than the veil between the living and the dead…or between justice and revenge.

Review: I feel like I need to bleach my eyes.

When writing a dnf review or a review with a low rating I like to include parts of the book I liked. But there were absolutely none in Skin. In all honesty I should have dnf-ed sooner, but I am relieved that I didn’t struggle on because I’ve heard it gets even worse.

So, the reason for my dnf? I didn’t enjoy reading Skin at all and then there were the rape parts. Imagine a character is being hunted by three men and it is crystal clear that they are out for blood. Is that a situation to notice how “cute” one of them is? Are you fucking serious?! And then the on page rape scene is written for erotic intent. HOW ABOUT NO?!

The way the male character with a ‘feminine touch’ was written read to me a lot like sexism. Add a lot of female slurs and I’m out.

If you’re interested in a review of a reader who struggled through Skin check out Sameena Jehanzbeb’s.

Last words: So much nope.

Disclaimer: I received a free copy through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. Thank you.



Review: Self-Love Workbookby Dominee Wyrick

 Series: Self-Love Workbook

Genre: non-fiction, self-help

Diversity: It’s your choice?

Rating: 5/5 stars

Cover: I’m kinda sorry I only own the digital product

Links: Blessing Manifesting

Trigger warnings: None

Description: I started the Self-Love Workbook in 2013 as a planner/tool to help me love myself. I wanted a place to dump all this self-help/personal-growth stuff that was happening in my life after so many years of self-loathing. I was working really hard at being a better me and I wanted to put all of these thoughts and feelings into a place where I could continue to work on them and where I could see the transformation happening on paper.

This workbook was the essence of getting my shit together in one big, beautiful, book.

Since then, the Self-Love Workbook has transformed into a powerful tool, not just for self-love/self-care but for personal transformation.

This year we have several versions! Sober Life, Mom Life, Biz Life, Witch Life, and Mental Health!

Review: This workbook is just the thing I needed!

My second half of 2017 was full of personal development or at least the want for it. But I really didn’t know how to get started on this journey. It’s not really something that is taught at school, is it? So I was kinda lost. And when I’m lost I ask the internet.

I really can’t remember all the websites I’ve been on. I do remember that I found something maybe-useful on most of them, but never THE thing. But my search history influenced my pinterest ‘feed’ and more and more I saw pins of the Self-Love Workbook. The cover is so beautiful in its minimalism and colour scheme, that the pins caught my eye every time. And I opened them on a weekly basis and stared longingly at the Self-Love Workbook.

I tried resisting it for about a month. And then I bought it. But I am kinda impatient with these things so I bought the digital copy to get started immediately. Plus I own a rather big fake filofax that is impossible for daily use, so… a match made in heaven?

And it is. I love designing the pages exactly the way I want them to be (I don’t print the digital copy because my printer sucks). But I still think I’ll be the print copy for 2019.

But let’s start talking about the important things: the content.

I love how the questions aren’t about rainbows and puppies. Not that there’s something wrong with rainbows and puppies (especially not with puppies!) but that wouldn’t help me. At all. I need to get to the dark side so to speak. I need to be asked uncomfortable questions I would stay the hell away from if I’d be on my own.

But there are other questions I wouldn’t ask myself as well if were not for this workbook. I wouldn’t have thought about my happiest moments in 2017, because… I don’t know why. But I know I wouldn’t have. Thinking about them though? Gave me a big happiness rush and an important realization about myself.

I wouldn’t have made a self care list even though I wanted to. But there was always something different to do. Whenever I use my Self-Love Workbook though? I don’t put a task on the ‘do later list’. I just do it.

If you want to take a peek at this workbook, you can watch videos about it on Blessing Manifesting!

FYI: I’ve bought the Mental Health add-on as well and I love it just as much as the original.

Whenever I enjoy an author’s work I want to own everything they’ve published, so… don’t be surprised if I review more of Dominee Wyrick’s products!




Review: All the Ways to Here

gcsebzpSeries: Future Leaders (book 2)

Genre: Contemporary, Romance, YA

Diversity: f/f, different LGBTQIA+/MOGAI characters

Rating: 5/5 Stars

Cover: Turquoise!

Links: goodreads,
Amazon.de*, Amazon.com*

Trigger warnings: mentions of eating disorder

Description: In this sequel to Future Leaders of Nowhere, Finn and Willa come home from camp to find everything is different. Even as they grow more sure of their feelings for each other, everything around them feels less certain.

When Finn gets involved in a new community project, she’s forced to question where her priorities lie at school. Meanwhile, her dad has moved interstate, her mother is miserable, and her home feels like a ghost town.

Willa’s discovering how to negotiate the new terrains of romance and school friendships when an accident at home reminds her just how tenuous her family situation is. Suddenly, even with her dad in town, she’s shouldering more responsibility than ever.

As they try to navigate these new worlds together, Finn’s learning she has to figure out what she wants, and Willa how to ask for what she needs.

Review: So worth the wait!

I think I may have a new second favourite book by Emily O’Beirne (Here’s the Thing will probably stay forever in first place)!

You know those romances where the whole book is about the romance and the (mostly) two people involved in it? Whenever something not-relationship-y happens it’s only so relationship-y stuff can come out of it? Not here! Of course not here.

Instead Finn and Willa still have their separate lives. Just because you’re in love with someone doesn’t mean there isn’t any everyday stuff to do and that you can’t think about anything different than your partner. And Finn and Willa do have a lot on their plate.

All the Ways to Here picks off where Future Leaders to Nowhere ended and I really love how there isn’t a big time jump between the two books. There was a rather big time jump between me reading the first and then the second book but it didn’t feel like it because I was back in the story from page 1.

I can’t tell you about everything I love about this book, because I’d spoiler the whole book and I really want you to experience it on your own…

I still want to talk about two themes: friendships and expectations.

I love the friendships that are portrayed in All the Ways to Here! They are not without complications and they’re not interchangeable with each other, because guess what? People are different so the relationship you’ve got with one person will be different from that with another person. I especially enjoyed the worry of one character about one of their friend’s eating disorder, because it is well done. I can imagine having the same thoughts and fears about it being true and how to talk to one person about them having an ED.

But the thing that really hit home were expectations. There is a lot of pressure on Finn and Willa about who they should be, what they should do, how they should be. I myself lived my life according to other people’s expectations and I wasn’t happy that way. I wasn’t exactly miserable either (most of the time at least) but that really is no way to live your life. The characters have to deal with different expectations and the way that stress shapes them. I love Emily for not portraying them ‘sweetly’ stressed but have them lashing out if it gets too much.

Okay, I lied… there’s a third theme I want to mention: talking in relationships

Relationships are about communication. Your partner can’t read your mind, so you have to talk to them. Finn and Willa give a great example about how to talk to your partner about the things that are on your mind and what will happen if you do not talk about it.

I really love how healthy their relationship is portrayed. Like really. So often in YA it I roll my eyes or worse have to yell about abusive patterns but this YA book? You won’t see me doing any of this. Instead I’ll yell about how there’s an example on how to deal with your partner when they’re being moody. Spoiler: the answer’s not to extort them!

This book will end up as one of my rare double copies! I already own the ebook on my digital shelf but I HAVE to have the print book on my actual bookshelf as well. This alone should tell you how much I love All the Ways to Here.

Disclaimer: I received a free copy through the author in exchange for an honest review. Thank you.


*affiliate link: this DOESN’T mean you pay more, I simply receive some money if you decide to buy All the Ways to Here.

2017’s Books to get lost in

It’s the end of the year – well kinda at least. Since I’m on my way to my girlfriend tomorrow where I won’t have time to blog (and let’s be honest, I don’t want to) I’m posting today my best books of 2017.

Just now I was going through my Goodreads and I totally forgot so many great books that I have read this year! I forgot about some reaaaally bad ones as well, but we don’t want to talk about those…

This post will move chronically back through the year, so don’t wander if it is not alphabetically or by rating sorted.


22055262 A Darker Shade of Magic by V.E. Schwab

Kell is one of the last Antari—magicians with a rare, coveted ability to travel between parallel Londons; Red, Grey, White, and, once upon a time, Black.

Kell was raised in Arnes—Red London—and officially serves the Maresh Empire as an ambassador, traveling between the frequent bloody regime changes in White London and the court of George III in the dullest of Londons, the one without any magic left to see.

Unofficially, Kell is a smuggler, servicing people willing to pay for even the smallest glimpses of a world they’ll never see. It’s a defiant hobby with dangerous consequences, which Kell is now seeing firsthand.

After an exchange goes awry, Kell escapes to Grey London and runs into Delilah Bard, a cut-purse with lofty aspirations. She first robs him, then saves him from a deadly enemy, and finally forces Kell to spirit her to another world for a proper adventure.

Now perilous magic is afoot, and treachery lurks at every turn. To save all of the worlds, they’ll first need to stay alive.


34909565 All the Ways to Here by Emily O’Beirne – Review to come soon!

In this sequel to Future Leaders of Nowhere, Finn and Willa come home from camp to find everything is different. Even as they grow more sure of their feelings for each other, everything around them feels less certain.

When Finn gets involved in a new community project, she’s forced to question where her priorities lie at school. Meanwhile, her dad has moved interstate, her mother is miserable, and her home feels like a ghost town.

Willa’s discovering how to negotiate the new terrains of romance and school friendships when an accident at home reminds her just how tenuous her family situation is. Suddenly, even with her dad in town, she’s shouldering more responsibility than ever.

As they try to navigate these new worlds together, Finn’s learning she has to figure out what she wants, and Willa how to ask for what she needs.


 Scorpio hates Virgo by Anyta Sunday – Review to come soon!

This year is all about healing the heart, Scorpio. It’s time to leave negative attitudes and stoic facades at the door and let others see the real, more vulnerable you.

Percy Freedman is not grieving. Absolutely not, take that back at once. No, he’s entirely sure that selling his dead aunt’s home and leaving the neighbors he’s known for years is the sane thing to do. Who in their right mind would keep the house that smells like all the hugs he’ll never have again?

Nobody, that’s who.

Well, except his cul-de-sac neighbors. They all seem to think some paint and new furniture will clean the emotional slate. They all want him to stay.

Even his nemesis, Callaghan Glover.

Especially his nemesis, Callaghan Glover.

Lured into a game of Sherlock Gnomes, Percy finds himself hanging out with his neighbors more than might be considered healthy. Along with juggling new and surprising verbal grenades from Cal, and his burgeoning friendship with Gnomber9, Percy is starting to wonder if selling might have been the grief talking after all . . .

That’s right, Scorpio. With a little patience, heartbreak might be a thing of the past . . .


 His Quiet Agent by Ada Maria Soto – Review here

Arthur Drams works for a secret government security agency, but all he really does is spend his days in a cubicle writing reports no one reads. After getting another “lateral promotion” by a supervisor who barely remembers his name, it’s suggested that Arthur try to ‘make friends’ and ‘get noticed’ in order to move up the ladder. It’s like high school all over again: his attempts to be friendly come across as awkward and creepy, and no one wants to sit at the same table with him at lunch. In a last-ditch attempt to be seen as friendly and outgoing, he decides to make friends with The Alien, aka Agent Martin Grove, known for his strange eating habits, unusual reading choices, and the fact that no one has spoken to him in three years.

Starting with a short, surprisingly interesting conversation on sociology books, Arthur slowly begins to chip away at The Alien’s walls using home-cooked meals to lure the secretive agent out of his abrasive shell. Except Martin just might be something closer to an actual secret agent than paper-pusher Arthur is, and it might be more than hearts at risk when something more than friendship begins to develop.


 Proxy by Alex London – Review to come

Knox was born into one of the City’s wealthiest families. A Patron, he has everything a boy could possibly want—the latest tech, the coolest clothes, and a Proxy to take all his punishments. When Knox breaks a vase, Syd is beaten. When Knox plays a practical joke, Syd is forced to haul rocks. And when Knox crashes a car, killing one of his friends, Syd is branded and sentenced to death.

Syd is a Proxy. His life is not his own.

Then again, neither is Knox’s. Knox and Syd have more in common than either would guess. So when Knox and Syd realize that the only way to beat the system is to save each other, they flee. Yet Knox’s father is no ordinary Patron, and Syd is no ordinary Proxy. The ensuing cross-country chase will uncover a secret society of rebels, test both boys’ resolve, and shine a blinding light onto a world of those who owe and those who pay. Some debts, it turns out, cannot be repaid.



 Rock N Soul by Lauren Sattersby

I’m Tyler Lindsey, and until recently, I had an okay apartment, an okay girlfriend, and an okay job as a bellboy at a respectable Boston hotel. Then rock star Chris Raiden died right before I brought his room service—stiffing me on the tip, by the way—and my life went to hell. My fifteen minutes of fame was more like five seconds, and my girlfriend left me in disgust.

But even worse—Chris is haunting me. Not the room where he died, like a normal ghost. No, somehow he’s stuck to me and is insisting on taking care of a bunch of unfinished business in California. So now I have to traipse across the country with the world’s most narcissistic ghost.

But . . . I keep having these weird thoughts. Thoughts about how much I like the way he makes me laugh. Thoughts where I kind of want to kiss the emo-narcissist, even though he’s a ghost and an asshole and I can’t touch him anyway. And even if I could, what will happen when he finishes his business and nothing’s keeping him here anymore?


 Tash hearts Tolstoy by Kathryn Ormsbee – Review here

After a shout-out from one of the Internet’s superstar vloggers, Natasha “Tash” Zelenka finds herself and her obscure, amateur web series, Unhappy Families, thrust into the limelight: She’s gone viral.

Her show is a modern adaptation of Anna Karenina—written by Tash’s literary love Count Lev Nikolayevich “Leo” Tolstoy. Tash is a fan of the forty thousand new subscribers, their gushing tweets, and flashy Tumblr GIFs. Not so much the pressure to deliver the best web series ever.

And when Unhappy Families is nominated for a Golden Tuba award, Tash’s cyber-flirtation with Thom Causer, a fellow award nominee, suddenly has the potential to become something IRL—if she can figure out how to tell said crush that she’s romantic asexual.

Tash wants to enjoy her newfound fame, but will she lose her friends in her rise to the top? What would Tolstoy do?



 Under Parr by Andrea Bramhall – Review here

December 5th, 2013 left its mark on the North Norfolk Coast in more ways than one. A tidal surge and storm swept millennia-old cliff faces into the sea and flooded homes and businesses up and down the coast. It also buried a secret in the WWII bunker hiding under the golf course at Brancaster. A secret kept for years, until it falls squarely into the lap of Detective Sergeant Kate Brannon and her fellow officers.

A skeleton, deep inside the bunker.

How did it get there? Who was he…or she? How did the stranger die—in a tragic accident or something more sinister?

Well, that’s Kate’s job to find out.






 The Magpie Lord by KJ Charles – Review to come

A lord in danger. A magician in turmoil. A snowball in hell.

Exiled to China for twenty years, Lucien Vaudrey never planned to return to England. But with the mysterious deaths of his father and brother, it seems the new Lord Crane has inherited an earldom. He’s also inherited his family’s enemies. He needs magical assistance, fast. He doesn’t expect it to turn up angry.

Magician Stephen Day has good reason to hate Crane’s family. Unfortunately, it’s his job to deal with supernatural threats. Besides, the earl is unlike any aristocrat he’s ever met, with the tattoos, the attitude… and the way Crane seems determined to get him into bed. That’s definitely unusual.

Soon Stephen is falling hard for the worst possible man, at the worst possible time. But Crane’s dangerous appeal isn’t the only thing rendering Stephen powerless. Evil pervades the house, a web of plots is closing round Crane, and if Stephen can’t find a way through it—they’re both going to die.


 This is not a Love Story by Suki Fleet – Review here

When fifteen-year-old Romeo’s mother leaves one day and doesn’t return, he finds himself homeless and trying to survive on the streets. Mute and terrified, his silence makes him vulnerable, and one night he is beaten by a gang of other kids, only to be rescued by a boy who pledges to take care of him.

Julian is barely two years older than Romeo. A runaway from an abusive home, he has had to make some difficult choices and sells himself on the street to survive. Taking care of Romeo changes him, gives him a purpose in life, gives him hope, and he tries to be strong and keep his troubles with drugs behind him. But living as they do is slowly destroying him, and he begins to doubt he can be strong enough.

This is the story of their struggle to find a way off the streets and stay together at all costs. But when events threaten to tear them apart, it is Romeo who must find the strength within himself to help Julian (and not let their love story turn into a Shakespearean tragedy).


 Enemies of the State by Tal Bauer – Review to come

A rogue Black Ops unit with the president in their crosshairs.
A Secret Service agent who will break every rule.
A president falling for the one person he shouldn’t—a man.

Newly elected President Jack Spiers’s presidency is rocked from the very beginning, and he’s working furiously to keep the world from falling apart. Between terrorism attacks ripping apart Europe, Russia’s constant posturing and aggression, and the quagmire of the Middle East, Jack is struggling to keep his campaign promise—to work toward a better, safer world.

For Special Agent Ethan Reichenbach, Jack is just another president, the third in twelve years. With Jack’s election, he’s been promoted, and now he’s running the presidential detail, which puts him side by side with Jack daily. He’s expecting another stuffed suit and an arrogant DC politician, but Jack shocks him with his humor and humanity.

There are rules against a Secret Service agent and one of their protectees developing a friendship—big rules. Besides, Jack is straight as a ruler, and a widower, and Ethan has always avoided falling for straight men. Ethan keeps his distance, but Jack draws him in, like gas to a naked flame, and it’s a lure he isn’t strong enough to turn away from.

As the two men collide, rules are shattered and the world teeters on the verge of war, and a rogue Black Ops unit bent on destruction sets Jack in their deadly crosshairs. Ethan must put everything on the line in order to save the man he’s come to love, Jack’s presidency, and the world.


 Trailer Trash by Marie Sexton – Review here

It’s 1986, and what should have been the greatest summer of Nate Bradford’s life goes sour when his parents suddenly divorce. Now, instead of spending his senior year in his hometown of Austin, Texas, he’s living with his father in Warren, Wyoming, population 2,833 (and Nate thinks that might be a generous estimate). There’s no swimming pool, no tennis team, no mall—not even any MTV. The entire school’s smaller than his graduating class back home, and in a town where the top teen pastimes are sex and drugs, Nate just doesn’t fit in.

Then Nate meets Cody Lawrence. Cody’s dirt-poor, from a broken family, and definitely lives on the wrong side of the tracks. Nate’s dad says Cody’s bad news. The other kids say he’s trash. But Nate knows Cody’s a good kid who’s been dealt a lousy hand. In fact, he’s beginning to think his feelings for Cody go beyond friendship.

Admitting he might be gay is hard enough, but between small-town prejudices and the growing AIDS epidemic dominating the headlines, a town like Warren, Wyoming, is no place for two young men to fall in love.


There are quite a few reviews I have to write in 2018, but I’m excited to write them. Of course there willbe those I’ve mentioned above, but there are many more as well!

Have you read any of these books? And more importantly: what are your favourite books of 2017?

Interview about and review of: Perfect Rhythm by Jae

 Series: Standalone

Genre: Romance, Contemporary

Diversity: LGBT (f/f, asexual character, lesbian character, aroace side character, queerplatonic side relationship)

Rating: 3.5/5 Stars

Cover: A friend of mine said it looks like a Taylor Swift cover. She’s kinda right, isn’t she?

Links: goodreads

Trigger warnings: acephobia

Description: Pop star Leontyne Blake might sing about love, but she stopped believing in it a long time ago. What women want is her image, not the real her. When her father has a stroke, she flees the spotlight and returns to her tiny Missouri hometown.

In her childhood home, she meets small-town nurse Holly Drummond, who isn’t impressed by Leo’s fame at all. That isn’t the only thing that makes Holly different from other women. She’s also asexual. For her, dating is a minefield of expectations that she has decided to avoid.

Can the tentative friendship between a burned-out pop star and a woman not interested in sex develop into something more despite their diverse expectations?

A lesbian romance about seeking the perfect rhythm between two very different people—and finding happiness where they least expect it.

Review: I’ve got a love-hate-relationship with this one.

I can’t promise this review will make much sense, but I’ll try my best. I’ve got a special treat for you though!

But let’s start with the review itself:

I love Holly. She is a great and interesting character. Her being ace is simply a part of who she is. Leo is harder to love… a part of this may be the way being seen as a sex object has shaped her…

Anyway, I really enjoyed their romance, because guess what? No love at first sight! Instead they have a kinda rocky start and then they begin to get to know each other. Slowly. And they fall in love. Slowly. I’m all for slow burn romances, because they always feel more real and they really show and don’t tell.

And thanks to this book being all about character development we get to read about other than stuff than love as well. I like more plot than simply see-for-the-first-time-fall-in-love-instantly-little-bit-of-drama-the-end, okay? There usually are other people in a person’s life than their love interest. And one has going on more than simply being in love.

Leo’s father for example plays an important role and I loved how his health is not a one time only scene.

So, this sounds like a 5 stars read, doesn’t it?


There is the asexual part. And this is the part why I don’t really know how to rate this book. Every rating feels wrong and unfair. I don’t think I felt this helpless and mixed up about a review before. Luckily I had the chance to meet Jae at Frankfurt Book Fair 2017 and she was very nice about me asking questions about Perfect Rhythm. So I could find some clarity (gosh, that sounds so dramatic!).

Holly herself is greatly portrayed in her asexuality and I enjoyed how she isn’t sex-repulsed. Because asexuality is a spectrum and there are asexuals, who enjoy sex. I loved how Jae put a trigger warning before the sex scene in her book as well. Way more authors need to do this!

But when she first told Leo about being ace, she used liking chocolate to make her understand. And I felt really disappointed because up to then everything was great. Asexuality isn’t about liking or not liking sex. It’s about not feeling sexual attraction.

So I asked Jae why she used this analogy and she said, she wrote Perfect Rhythm because a good friend of her is ace and there aren’t enough ace romances out there (so fucking true!). This friend uses chocolate to make people understand a little. Most people don’t know about romantic and sexual identities. Everything is the same for them and they think, everyone wants to have sex. So telling them “hey, I don’t feel sexual attraction, but I can love as deeply as every romantic person” confuses them.

I can get behind that.

Then there is Leo who reacts very acephobic in her thoughts. Being like “can I really date an asexual?!” is not nice. Annie told me how one can judge if that’s a good thought or not if you exchange the asexual for black for example. I wasn’t sure if I am ‘allowed’ to feel pissed about that thought. Well, now I feel like I am allowed.

I asked Jae about this as well. She portrayed Leo as an allo with absolutely no information about asexuality as well and she says this reaction is sadly realistic. People think like this. This doesn’t mean it’s a good way of thinking but they do.

I can get behind that.

Leo ends up dating Holly of course. I would have liked it more if Leo kinda apologized for this? Or told herself how fucking stupid she was to think like this because it’s wrong and acephobic and so so so stupid.

You may be wondering why I waited this long to review Perfect Rhythm if I was that unamused by it.

I felt like Jae is not acephobic. So I put writing this review off for weeks. And then I saw she would be a the Book Fair and I knew that was my chance!

I got this feeling, because of several things:

  • Holly later explains asexuality to Leo in a way better way
  • Jae hat sensitivity readers (she told me 4 ace spec total, one demi, one aroace and if just one sensitivity reader would have said anything she would have changed the thing that they didn’t like)
  • her talking about asexuality at the end of Perfect Rhythm and this post on the Ylva blog

How to end this wannabe review? I don’t know. I’m not sure if it helps you in any way? But at least we get reasons for the way asexuality is portrayed in Perfect Rhythm by the author.

There was never a more difficult to write review than this one believe me! And I’m not proud of this one. But sometimes feelings are confusing and in this case they are very confusing. I think I’ll read Perfect Rhythm again in a year or two and then come back to this review.

Jae: Thank you for being this honest and patient with my questions. I enjoyed our talk a lot!

Disclaimer: I received a free copy through the publisher in exchange for an honest review. Thank you.


Review: The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas

 Series: Standalone

Genre: YA, contemporary, drama

Diversity: POC, Asian American character

Rating: 4.5/5 Stars

Cover: I love how powerful the pink cover is.

Links: goodreads

Trigger warnings: drugs, violence, racism

Description: Sixteen-year-old Starr Carter moves between two worlds: the poor neighborhood where she lives and the fancy suburban prep school she attends. The uneasy balance between these worlds is shattered when Starr witnesses the fatal shooting of her childhood best friend Khalil at the hands of a police officer. Khalil was unarmed.

Soon afterward, his death is a national headline. Some are calling him a thug, maybe even a drug dealer and a gangbanger. Protesters are taking to the streets in Khalil’s name. Some cops and the local drug lord try to intimidate Starr and her family. What everyone wants to know is: what really went down that night? And the only person alive who can answer that is Starr.

But what Starr does or does not say could upend her community. It could also endanger her life.

Review: Very thought-provoking YA.

I had some slight troubles getting into this book, but the reason for this is not the story. I’m just not used to the used language, since most books – or most books I read – aren’t using slang. It didn’t hinder my enjoyment of The Hate U Give though. Okay, enjoyment is not the right word…

This book enraged me, frightened me, gave me goosebumps and made me teary-eyed. And that’s exactly what I think should happen. Not only when reading THUG but hearing the news of or being present when racist police officers misuse their job.

I had to look at the book’s information while reading because I kept thinking to myself ‘This book has been published in the US?!’ Well, it didn’t. Or at least the version I’ve read didn’t.

You see, it just seems so real and since it’s #ownvoices I believe that it is real. Honestly, here in Germany we don’t get a lot of information about US racist cops, but we see enough. Put this together with the things I see with Social Media? It’s been fucking time for a book like THUG to be published! And I’m hoping for way more.

Just because it’s YA doesn’t mean a book can’t have a powerful message. Not only adults experience racism, so why shouldn’t it be written about in YA?

I feel like I’m going down a political route… not that that’s bad but I want to talk about The Hate U Give.

And I really love this book but for one thing.

Remember how I just talked about it being real? There is one thing that doesn’t feel realistic at all. It’s a small thing but kinda spoiler-y so if you want to stop reading my review here, that’s alright. You won’t miss anything important.


Starr doesn’t talk to her boyfriend about the things she has experienced. And I don’t know why. Of course she’s being like “he’s white!” but… he’s your boyfriend. Talk to him before going on television and having him find out that way?! You like him, maybe even love him… why shouldn’t he be a comfort to you in this time? And if you think he can’t or maybe even react racist… why be with him?


Finally Becomming Professional

How many blog posts have I started this last few months with something along the lines of “I’m sorry I wasn’t more active, …?” Way too many, that’s for sure.

And I don’t want to do this anymore! I love writing for my blog, I love writing and reading comments, being with you all on twitter and everywhere else.  I’ve really missed it this past weeks and I’ve made some changes to ensure I’ll post more.

I can’t promise they’ll help since the reason for my absence is mental health related, but I really want them to work!

First Adjustment

I’ve finally written an editorial calendar. Yes, I know, I know. I should’ve done that in the beginning, but I thought I could work without one. Creative chaos and all that. Turns out I can but I can’t work well without one.

So, I’ve written one. I’ll probably make a pretty one as well and if I do I’ll post it for you. In this calendar I’ve put down everything I could think of – Writing and posting of reviews of course, but there’s a fixed day for replying to emails and noting things down as well. Among other things. So you may expect a regular-ish posting theme from now on! Yay.

Second Adjustment

Social Media needs to become a bigger part of Books to get lost in. I am active on twitter (that’s the one I’m most active on), but I’ve got accounts on Pinterest, Facebook and Instagram as well. If you’re interested you can follow my tumblr as well, but that’s a big mess of everything so be prepared.

Third Adjustment

I’m self-studying modern calligraphy (if you follow my Instagram you may have seen it already). But I didn’t make enough time for it. And since I want my reviews to look more like my reviews I’ll use calligraphy for them. I don’t know why I haven’t thought of this way sooner… But I’m starting right away with this adjustment – as you have seen at the beginning of this post. But I need a free hosting site for this. So if you know any…?

Forth Adjustment

It’s a thing I’ve done before, really. I will blog about my hauls and write a monthly overview as well. But I won’t show you books I’ve bought, or not just books I’ve bought. I’ll blog about additions to my TBR from now on as well. I’m thinking of doing this once a month right now… So now I’ll have to note when I put which book to my tbr. Luckily Goodreads has a date added feature!

Fifth Adjustment

The Top Ten Tuesday meme will appear on my blog again. But only if the week’s theme is of interest to me. So there will be Tuesdays without a TTT. Why should I blog about things I don’t enjoy blogging about? Which brings me to my last adjustment:

Sixth Adjustment

Find the fun in blogging again! Because it’s there. Blogging is fun and interesting and challenging and I just really enjoy doing it. I just need to remind myself from time to time of this.


Are there any things you have changed about your blogging style?

Or maybe you even have some tips for me?


Frankfurt Book Fair 2017

Starting Tuesday I’ll be at Frankfurt Book Fair again and I won’t be able to do any blog related stuff. Well, okay, I might tweet a lot but other than that…

I’ll get back late Sunday evening and I will write reviews after again! I’m thinking about doing a discussion post as well. It’s been ages since the last one…

I’m so sorry for not really writing a lot of reviews right now, but I’m so busy and exhausted all the time…